The questions you ask shape the answers you get.
Your questions are a product of your environment, community, and mindset. Take care with whom you surround yourself and what you choose to champion. You must fiercely curate that you afford entry into your world.
Do not be bashful. Elect a blunt, honest, compassionate approach.
You're holding the pen and you have a blank piece of paper in front of you. All you need to do is write. Each and every day brings the promise of pages to be composed, revisited, & finalized. Write sober, vigorously, & fully present. Make your masterpiece now. Not later. Before you're ready, there will be no more days left.
Here, the better question is not, "shall I compose?" Rather, "what shall I compose today?"